TuRmoIL

My life is in turmoil. I am trying to breath, to live, to eat, to exist. I am barely doing it. I am here, or am I? I don't know. I have no answers. I can't even think of questions. My mind cannot focus. I can hardly feel. If I feel, then what if I break down? WHo will pick me up? No one. I have to do this alone, but I don't know how. My life feels like a lie, like a sham. Was it all a game? Is it really all gone? Please give me strenght to get through this, for I feel the loneliest I ever have.